Ground Zero: The Beginning after the End

So lo and behold I stumble upon “MavenD’s Path” after over a full calendar year of inactivity.  What have I been doing with my life and why am I so off path?  I revisited my previous posts and realized how much I’ve changed over the last year.  I’ve lost not only a sense of myself, I’ve lost all sense of faith in this process of growth.  Thinking about the last year I’ve started so many things I haven’t finished.  I’ve been an inconsistent friend.  I’ve looked for the easiest way out of and into things.  I blamed a lot of things on a lot of people.  And all the while I’ve sworn that it wasn’t anything I was doing, it had to be a product of the forces outside of me.  I continued on this path expecting things to get better and wondered why they didn’t.  Sounds a little insane, right?  Same things (expelling negative energy) and expecting different results (positive manifestations).  There’s no amount of praying (trust me) that will change the outcome because I was continuously focused on the negative and asking for God to take this burden from me.  How in the world is God going to take something from me that I keep holding onto and re-manifesting?  Free will, right?  I had lost sight of the Universe’s modus operandi – I will support you, whatever you focus on, whatever you consistently choose.  I have come to the point where I’ve literally stepped out of my mind.  Sometimes that’s the place you have to get to so that you can refocus and rebuild.  That’s the reason I’ve titled the post “Ground Zero”, because I’ve destroyed a lot just so I could rebuild something stronger, more efficient, and more reinforced than it’s predecessor.  I’m working on rebuilding, one brick at a time.  I hope you enjoy the ride, ’cause it’s going to be a fun one!