Integrity

Follow through has always been a slight problem for me. I’ll say I’m going to do it. I’ll mean to do it, but somehow in the process of execution my well meaning intentions get lost. I really think what was meant by the term “the pathway to hell is paved with good intentions”, it actually means that all the things you planned on doing but never did, even with good intentions, is what leads you to your own personal hell. I understand that completely. But it’s not just about follow through, it’s also about being realistic about what you’ll do, what’s in the realm of possibilities for you, and what you actually hope for from the experience. A lot of times I know I’ll start something not to finish it but to see if I can actually get it started. It’s about if I have enough courage to put the plans forth or if I can pull together all the resources to get it started. I used to get down on myself about not finishing things, but I’ve come to find out that the reward for me is not always in the completion of a task. Another aspect of integrity for me has come from knowing when to say ‘no.’ Just as I’ve been given the ability to accept a task I also have the ability to reject a task. If I can not be my best when taking on a task and/or if no personal growth can be gained from a task I am responsible for saying ‘no.’ I understand that I lose nothing for refusing the things that do not serve me. I allow myself to enjoy this path and process more with every task that I agree to that aids my personal growth. I open myself up to the blessings that are constantly being set up for me in my path. I exclaim to the Universe “Yes, I am open, I am receptive!” This allows me to display more integrity with each action and choice. God is SO good. And I’m ready to consistently prove all that I’m learning throughout this process.

Manifestation: It’s not an easy task to do things out of integrity, when you’ve shrunk from it for so long. It’s a laborious process, but if I don’t start now, when? I’ve noticed that in as little as 24 hours the speed that the Universe works. I have had distances placed between negative situations and myself. I’ve allowed myself to be honest with all parties involved and had the usual confrontations deferred elsewhere. It’s almost as if the moment I said I’m ready the Universe had been ready! I opened up and realized how open all the opportunities have been to me. I feel a sense of calm and expectation but without the anxiousness. I’m really, really excited. God is SO good.

Days 18-19

Intention:Listening
I need to open myself up to paying attention to the things that are being revealed around me. I am being led, God is leading me. I need to open myself up to the signs that are ever present around me. I also need to do a better job of allowing the message to be revealed though others. God is ever present and is manifested in the world around me and through the people around me. I am allowing God’s love and light through my focus on listening.

Manifestation: I always used to (and sometimes still do) get upset with my mother because she is very forceful when she has something to say. The bigger problem is that she tries to make everybody listen (which she can’t do) and doesn’t listen herself at all. It always used to hurt me because I wanted my mother to listen because I needed her to listen to me. I could never understand why. And it bothered me. I recently started to understand why she responded this way. She never felt like anyone listened to her, so she never took the time to listen to anyone else because she was always trying to get people to listen to her. So I vowed to make the effort to be open to listening more. How can I hear God through other people if I don’t listen for her/him to speak through people? And how can I expect someone to be willing to listen to me, if I don’t open myself up and listen to them? I’m ready to receive God’s message through people, I’m ready to grow through the messages I receive daily. I’m ready to allow the reflections that I receive in my daily interactions with people and to grow from those interactions. God is SO good!

Validation it is! So I have another blog where I generally ramble and give advice to people who don’t really know they need it!  But what I do love about it is it gives me the opportunity to LISTEN! To open myself to what other people are feeling or thinking. This is a prime opportunity to receive God’s message through others. I posted a recent blog titled Moving into Necessary. It’s basically about moving past regret, doing what you need to do and not worrying about the supposed loses because the gains will outweigh them in the end. So I got a great response from my girl Relle and she had this to say: “Anyone that I love will be as a result of me loving me.” I needed to hear that, it is entirely relevant to my current situation. I am working on unconditionally loving me, always without hesitation and I’m getting better at it daily. Being able to successfully love another person is the result of me loving me. That’s what I needed to hear. It’s wonderful to have resources and support from God through loving and nurturing people. I feel SO blessed. God is SO good.

Days 14-15

Intention:Meditation and Clarity
I’ve been clouded by other people’s thoughts and actions so I’m taking these days and paying special attention to what resides within me. I’m seeking clarity by going inward. Taking the time to meditate and focus on what I’m creating with my thoughts. Thoughts combined with emotion manifests. Distractions cause me to create unconsciously and by default. I actively block distraction. I actively create.

Manifestation: I’m having trouble keeping still and meditating. I’m getting really distracted by other people. I started to not pick up the phone a couple of times for certain people. I’m just not in the mood for the doubt and being annoyed. I tend to get really frustrated when I interact with people who have nothing ‘good’ to tell me. So today I’m taking a phone break, I’m spending more time outside and away from the nay-sayers and negative ones. I decided to get more personal with my posts. I feel like when I do decide to reflect back I’m going to need to see the progress I’m making. So that’s what the effort is for. I’ve been on the phone for the past couple of days with someone who has been frustrating me. I don’t want to feel pressured or obligated to do anything. And that’s all I feel – pressure, pressure, pressure. I need to take sometime away to retreat. So I’m going to have to take a couple Dayna Days. Coming soon….

So I’ve come to the understanding, through my meditation, that this pressure is coming from nowhere but myself. So when I did get some quiet time and retreated to that still, silent place I came to this understanding. I choose who to talk to and what to say. I control my thoughts and the time I take to help direct those thoughts. And I choose what energy to expel (consciously or by default). So it is my responsibility to take the time I need to retain my strength, to stay on my path and to have clarity in my purpose. I’m happy for this realization. God is SO good!

Tools: Visualization Board

I’ve created this board to remind me daily what my focus is.  This is to reaffirm what I am manifesting in my life today and in the future.  Please enjoy.  I have a copy on my computer desktop because I spend so much time on the computer, I see it often and I reflect on it often.  God is SO good.

Day 6

Intention: Divine Order
I am committed today in understanding divine order. There is no such thing as a coincidence or good luck, everything is created as my creator and I creates it. Everything throughout my experience has been created with my consciousness (and ignorance to it) and my connection to my creator. I welcome the manifestations today and I pay close attention to synchronicity.

Manifestation: Wow!  Talk about overwhelming!  Within a 3 hour period I managed to hear a free seminar (as a guest I didn’t have to pay the $50) hosted by one of the world’s foremost marketing professionals, a free book, free lunch, and a job offer. Divine order has definitely been at work for me today.  I need to focus on this one more often, this was great!  I don’t have too much time to elaborate because I’m attempting to enjoy this feeling place.  God is SO good.  We are SO blessed.  It is SO.

Days 4+5

Intention: Meditation and Peace
Thank you Creator, for the ability to create a world of peace around me. By the simple power in what I choose to focus on and my faith in our ability to create it I will spend these days in peace. With myself and those around me I create peace wherever I go. I engage others and constantly reaffirm that we are in control together Creator. I thank you for my ability, I thank you for helping me to clear away the mental clutter and align myself with you.

Manifestation: I’ve been focused, constantly keeping in-tune with the source energy that created me. I’ve been an observer in my daily interactions, paying attention to the manifestations that are unfolding. I’ve taken the time to retreat to my inner self and allow myself the room to find peace. I’ve regained my meditation practice and remain silent and still and seek inward several times during the day. I wait and speak to the still, small voice that directs me farther and farther down the path on my journey. I am thankful and hopeful all the way. I am mindful of my ability and confident in the spirit that I co-create my experience with. God is good.

Day 3

Intention: Clarity
Today I allow myself peace of mind to see and get better acquainted with the path before me. I utlize my ability to have clarity and take the time to focus inward. I allow the world around me to continue to move, while I take the time to remain silent and still. Being clear reassures me of what is in-line with the person that I am becoming and keeps negativity at bay. I am confident, I am purpose filled.

Manifestation: Yay CLARITY!  I was so abundant in my manifestation of clarity today.  Not only were things spoken into existence by me and others, I was lead to the very resources that I need to continue on the path that I desire.  I received validation in the form of emails, kind words, and phone calls.  Even though the other parties may have not been as clear about the purpose of our connections, I understood thoroughly.  The clearer I become about my path and what I would like to experience on my journey, the more validations I get from the world around me that I can experience what I want!  God is SO good.  This has been a great day.  Ashe.

Day 2

Intention: Visualization and Manifestation
Co-create my world through my focus on what I want, keeping my focus off of what I don’t want. I make a conscious effort in my day-to-day activities that reflect what I desire to experience in my future. I understand that with every emotion-charged thought that I am creating. Today I make efforts in creation through visualization. And so it is.

Manifestation: Today I have engaged in conversations surrounding what I want, bringing me closer to the physical manifestation of those things. I have also spent time in creative endeavors that allow me to see what I wish to manifest more clearly. I recently got news that next week I will be receiving something that I’ve been working on (I’ll document it once I receive it). I’ve also had a couple close friends who have shown interest in helping me to get in-line with the things that I desire. I have manifested the means to get to the next step. Now I’ve just got to follow the path that has been laid before me. God is great!

Example of visualization board, titled “Rio Pronto”, Brazil here I come!

Day 1

Intention: Wholeness and Companionship
My wholeness reflected back to me, making divine connections to friends.

Manifestation: I spent about an hour reflecting today on my wholeness through meditation. I reminded myself to not doubt my God and mySelf. Doubting mySelf is synonymous with doubting my God. I affirmed my faith in my God and mySelf and reminded myself of my wholeness. I repeated to myself the affirmation: what is before me is not greater than what is inside of me. I found myself not being as reactive as I’ve been in the past. I had a couple situations that occurred between my family members and I and I reacted in a peaceful manner. It is becoming easier for me to react through love and not out of irritation. It it a process and I am working at it everyday.

I spent time connecting to the people in my life that I hope to get closer to and better acquainted with. I contacted a friend that I hope to visit in my travels to New York next month. I miss our friendship and I hope that we can reconnect in that way. I also set forth the intention of the kind of friendships I hope to create in the future. We will see how this intention manifests in the future and I will be sure to revisit it as often as possible.
What a great day!

Beginning – 100 Day Challenge

So this will be my go to place to keep record of my progress on my 100 Day Challenge. These 100 days will be devoted to me consciously taking the time to devote to co-manifesting my world, just the way I like it with my creator. I plan on using this blog to help me track of what is manifesting in my day-to-day life. I hope to create a life, not out of current circumstances, but based upon me understanding my connection to my creator. I want to more than know, I want to utilize the gifts I have been given to create my world to my likening out of my understanding of my creative power. I know that I am a whole being who came to this physical world fully capable. I hope and know that I will be able to grow past the programming that was taught to me by, although well intentioned, the misinformed world around me. My goal in this is to one day have the ability to solely rely upon my creator and the creative abilities afforded to me. Although this is primarily for me, I’m giving everyone else the opportunity to take part in my growth. Enjoy!