Day 25 – Moving Back to Move Forward

So I’ve been neglegent with my posts, so I’ve decided (insert groan here) that I’m counting the days in my challenge by days I’ve actually, actively devoted to the challenge! Surprise! So I know I should be around Day 30, but I’m actively at Day 25.

Intention: Honesty and Wholeness

So honesty is the best policy, right? Then why does it seem like most people don’t constantly apply this policy? I know it tends to be difficult, especially when you are already in the midst of lying, you don’t want to hurt someone’s feelings, or you’re just not comfortable being straight forward. But it’s still NECESSARY. It prevents situations of guilt, mistrust, and deception. Being honest creates freedom, freedom from the burden of lies. So over the next couple days I will apply this policy and allow myself to be aware of the manifestations of it in my life. I am a whole being, I came to this earth worthy as I am. I don’t need to have give people an “idea” of me, I can give them the honest truth of me. I won’t leave things that are an essential and important part of me to being revealed when they are “relevant”. All of me is relevant right now, all of me is dynamic, all of me is whole. I will know who is for me by who chooses to accept me. I will not know who chooses to accept me until I am my honest and authentic self in all interactions.

Manifestation: Wow, God is SO good! So, so good! I’ve had a ball this week. I made a trip to Atlanta to visit one of my closest friends and cousin. I expected it to be an amazing week, but I really had no idea! Currently I am a happily single woman, but boy does Atlanta make it hard. The manifestation of my focus on honesty and wholeness this week came into play with my encounters with the opposite sex. Why is it so hard when you are tempted by a beautiful man (or woman for some of you)? I had to make sure that I was extra clear with several young potential courteirs that I know what I want. Now mind you I slipped in one way very poorly. My eyes and body knew what it wanted. But of course my heart and mind were like, “Dayna freeze!” My impetuous tendencies always seem to get the best of me. And my intuition is always on point, but do I listen? Nope! This time however I stopped the madness before it could begin. Honesty is ALWAYS the best policy. Be clear about what you want because conflicting agendas always breed bitterness and resentment. So I careful withdrew myself from a potential heartbreak situation and I am ecstatic about it. He was honest and I was honest in turn. I stepped away and I’m happier for it. That’s a lot to happen in only one week, you think? Well there was history behind it and this week it all came to the light. I get to have what I want, I am whole. This is God’s promise to me. I need to start with myself first, be honest with myself and I can be honest with everybody else. God is SO SO SO good. And I love her for it!!!!

Day 1

Intention: Wholeness and Companionship
My wholeness reflected back to me, making divine connections to friends.

Manifestation: I spent about an hour reflecting today on my wholeness through meditation. I reminded myself to not doubt my God and mySelf. Doubting mySelf is synonymous with doubting my God. I affirmed my faith in my God and mySelf and reminded myself of my wholeness. I repeated to myself the affirmation: what is before me is not greater than what is inside of me. I found myself not being as reactive as I’ve been in the past. I had a couple situations that occurred between my family members and I and I reacted in a peaceful manner. It is becoming easier for me to react through love and not out of irritation. It it a process and I am working at it everyday.

I spent time connecting to the people in my life that I hope to get closer to and better acquainted with. I contacted a friend that I hope to visit in my travels to New York next month. I miss our friendship and I hope that we can reconnect in that way. I also set forth the intention of the kind of friendships I hope to create in the future. We will see how this intention manifests in the future and I will be sure to revisit it as often as possible.
What a great day!